so close, yet sooooooo faaaaarrrrr.....

how in THE WORLD is it that the last seven days of this tour feel longer than the last seven months?  a few weeks ago, when some of us were conjecturing that the end would fly by, nicole had it right:  it was going to drag, and drag bad.  badly.  bad.  whatever.  

my skin is literally crawling to be home.  no one can do right by me these days, and for 90% of the people here, that's through no fault of their own.  (the other 10% are simply failures as people, so they can just stew in that pot all together.)  i'm just on edge and angry and rubbed raw, and i am done.  i have nothing left to give and no interest in giving anyway.  

i've been counting down days for about four weeks.  counting down shows for about two weeks.  today i considered counting the hours left, but i refrained, as i thought that would just make me feel a little crazier.  that's it.  i feel crazy.

facebook fanstuff

so here's the deal. i realize that you're not my fans. you're my friends. i know that. but the problem is that on facebook, they call it a "fan" page. if i could change the title to a "hey, what's going on in chelsea's career?" page, i would. but i can't. i feel a little bit like a tool inviting people to be my fans. but the deal is, that when you're an actor, you have to market yourself, plain and simple. you're a brand, and you are in charge of putting your brand out into the world for people to consume. and obviously, it's easiest to start with your friends. so be a fan. be a friend. be all of it, and suggest being a fan to your other friends. spread the love people, and i'll do the same for you.

xoxo